January 14, 2003 ~ 10:46 p.m.
Feeling:
I have a splitting toothache that's driving me crazy. It started since..Sunday I believe, and I could barely sleep at all last night because of it. It hurts so bad that I can't eat on that side of my mouth and it's making the left side of my head throb as well as inside my chest.
I've been taking some non-aspirin painkillers for it but it barely supresses the pain for over 2 hours. It's excrutiating. I'm trying my best with my own will to hold off the pain myself and not think about it but it's so painful I want to scream and cry.
So hopefully I'll have a dentist appointment this week. The only problem is, like some people, I'm afraid of the dentist. I used to be afraid since I was a kid. I hated going to the dentist, but before I used to take perfect care of my teeth. It's not like my teeth are completely rotten, but you get what I mean. Don't get me wrong I love my dentist, (my recent one anyway) and he's cool. It's just the fact of all those tools and having to wait and stare at the bright ceiling for over an hour or gets me nervous.
Even if they have a nice big aquarium in the middle of the waiting room which is supposed to calm patients, I still get a bit edgy. Read a magazine here and there, it's ok, but I know that eventually I'll have to get over it. I'm overdue for a check up anyway.
Having this toothache is holding me back from thinking too much about anything or allow me to concentrate on my homework. I hate it, hate it, hate it...
Dear God I feel like my body is going to breakdown...and I've been thinking weird thoughts that I'd be taking drugs just to take away all my pain. I know it doesn't. But my thoughts keep on tempting me that way...thank goodness there won't be any of that stuff ruining my life. There's other things that already have that job.
Take care of your teeth, folks...
Can't take this crap anymore...
Torn
Staying Strong
Heavenly Music
A Filipino Drunkard's Party
Living life »»†«« in solitude...
