May 29, 2003 ~ 11:23 p.m.
Feeling:
Song of the Day: "Don't Dream It's Over" ~ Sixpence None the Richer
Tonight was the night. The final performance of the Ensembles class for the year 2003. It was one of the best performances we ever did. Simply amazing...loaded with talent, as usual. We don't call it our Ensemble Talent Show for nothing.
Today we had to go down to the theater to rehearse, and I stayed there and missed two classes because I knew I wasn't doing much. I've been a bad girl today, though. I don't know if it's really that bad but people who know me would say I was (in a teasing manner). Kamlin was going to drop me off to school after we had lunch at Tex Drive-Inn to go to my 6th period class, but Makana convinced me to just skip out on it. I actually listened to her and decided not to go. It's not as if I was doing anything important in that boring class anyway...but I didn't inform my teacher about it. Oh well. My English teacher. She trust me, she's soft on me. I just seem to have that affect on all English teachers.
So moving on to tonight. The first half of program was songs by the underclassmen. I really enjoyed playing the strings part for the song Erin sang, "A House is Not a Home". She sang it beautifully. That girl really has an amazing voice. Then, a one song after Erin's, I finally got my solo.
I sang Norah Jones' "Don't Know Why" and played the piano at the same time. There's just something about being up there infront of many people to perform. I always get nervous before I perform (who doesn't?) but everytime I do, I pray to God and then he carries me though. I stay calm and relaxed and I give it my best. I did an excellent job, as Mr. Washburn, my parents, and my buds in the Ensemble crew praised me. It feels good to have praise...I'm happy when I'm around with them, because we all support each other and we all love music.
Though there were some good songs and perfomances, and even some that had a little trouble and a few technical difficulties, this end of the year's Talent Show was not like the ones before. Of course things in Ensembles are always different because different people are coming in and going out.
The night seemed to go by so fast. It was a little saddening...to see the Seniors have their last time in Ensembles. I really hate to see them go...because they've been such wonderful people and a good asset to the class. I wish them luck in the future.
I bet my next year will go very fast as well. That's right, I'm moving forward to be a Senior. I'm excited, yet a little scared at the same time. I would say that high school probably wasn't the best years of my life, but there are very wonderful memories that I will miss.
I think performing is something that I really enjoy. I may appear shy and quiet on the outside but I'm quite wild and rebellious within. Being infront of an audience doesn't really scare me that much anymore, even though I still get nervous. Since I'm mostly keeping to myself and at times 'invisible', and for keeping myself caged up, I really crave attention and glory. So that's why music and performing has become one of my favorite hobbies. It's how I can relieve myself of stress and shed my fears inside.
Agh, I'm not feeling much on this entry. My excitement's been dried up and now I just need to get some sleep. The hype is over now.
Can't take this crap anymore...
Torn
Staying Strong
Heavenly Music
A Filipino Drunkard's Party
Living life »»†«« in solitude...
