March 01, 2003 ~ 12:06 p.m.
Feeling:
Arrrgh....I feel horrible. I hate being sick. I don't get sick often but I really hate being sick. I had a high fever, ( didn't really take my temperature ) and my body was hot and achy all over. Last night was just as bad. I was shivering like I was in Antarctica and I couldn't stop. I had to use three blankets.
Then around 4 a.m. I woke up, feeling hot, and kicked off all my blankets. I needed something to drink for my dry throat and I forced myself up, walking blindly through the dark until I got to the kitchen. When I got back to my room I stayed up and watched some tv, which really didn't help much. Music videos are so lame and pathetic these days.
I felt sore all over, and an hour later I tried to go back to sleep. I despise sleep...I hurt all over and I feel restless with this fever. I kept on coughing most of the night. I felt like I was going to collapse any time soon.
I couldn't decide if I wanted to stay at school or go on the Ensembles field trip yesterday. I was going to stay so I could take my AP U.S. History exam, and get my absence slip signed because I forgot to get it signed by my other teachers. I couldn't get it all signed because Tuesday was when I twisted my ankle, Wednesday was when I didn't go to school, Thursday more four of my teachers weren't in school so I couldn't very well get their signatures and Friday I went on the field trip. So I went on the field trip anyway, since everyone tried to convince me to go, and Bridget finally got me to come. I probably would have been bored in school anyway.
Being with my Ensembles crew makes me feel like I belong somewhere. We all have something in common and most of us who have been in Ensembles for more than three years now really care about and know each other well. We're like family. Somehow traveling on the road with them...gives me a sense of freedom. It's not bad being a roady. I wish I could've been in Jazz band too but then I'd be missing too many classes and such and I need to take the essential classes so I can get into college.
We did good, it was the first time that I got a chance to do my part for Bridget's song "I Will Survive". She really rocked the Pahoa school's gym with that one.
Well I guess I'd better get some case. It's not a case about my sprained ankle anymore. It doesn't really throb in pain now, it just hurts but I try to rub the sore spots. My foot's become a little discolored probably from lack of circulating blood. I hope it's not going to be serious. Anyway, I'm going to take some Tylenol...
Forgive me if this entry was boring because I'm not quite in the mood...
Can't take this crap anymore...
Torn
Staying Strong
Heavenly Music
A Filipino Drunkard's Party
Living life »»†«« in solitude...
