June 08, 2003 ~ 9:46 p.m.
Feeling:
Silence...
Dreams. They can mean a lot of things. Symbolizing events or premonitions of occurences in life. They can bring a feeling of happiness, and show several good things. Some can be confusing as they combine memories from the brain as it still fuctions while you sleep.
Nightmares...how do they occur? Can they be considered the same as dreams? They are usually called, 'bad dreams'. So why do we have them?
Why all this talk of dreams...well...I've been taking three-hour long naps for the past few days. I've been extremely tired, and yet I still stay up to early morning. Today I had another long nap, and realized that I just had a nightmare. I was thinking about it a while ago and the thought of it was so scary that it almost made me want to cry.
I know I've had other nightmares too but somehow it wasn't as bad as this. It wasn't too much of a really bad nightmare that I'd wake up screaming. However...in the nightmare it was if I could almost feel my fear, sorrow, and pain.
In bad dreams like the one I had...I am always hiding, or running from someone. This time, I was more like myself, because I could actually see who I was, though a bit different. It was hard to tell where I was, but it was in some kind of building. A building that almost seemed something like a hospital, though with many sliding doors that closed between the halls.
He was after me. He was coming for me. Someone that seemed like he wanted to have me, someone so fearful but someone that I wanted in return. I ran and hid, but someone else was helping me but I don't know who. My pursuer was a killer.
Wherever I ran, I saw bloody corpses, seemingly trapped inside the walls, all around me. Terrible. It was like some kind of bloody valentine.
I begged and cried for my fearsome pursuer to stop. So I gave myself up to him. And then I can't remember anything more than that. It was just....scary.
....I want to lay corpses at your feet....
Can't take this crap anymore...
Torn
Staying Strong
Heavenly Music
A Filipino Drunkard's Party
Living life »»†«« in solitude...
